1 year ago…

… I was just waking up about this time. I remember my sister standing over my bed an looking down at me with a smile.  I KNOW what an angel smile looks like. Then shortly after, my brother and my wife and son arrived.  I was in and out of consciousness, on the ventilator, J-line placed in my neck, NG tube in my nose, restrained with wooly soft handcuffs, pain medicine running continuously, and a completely open belly (really, they didn’t close me up till a few days after surgery). I was not good company, I’m sure. But yet, there you all were… sitting with me constantly, making sure I was hydrated, rubbing my feet with lotion, swabbing my forehead and face with a cool damp cloth.

It’s been a long hard road from there to now.  But I HAVE SURVIVED the first year!  I AM alive! I, again. thank the following for support and help:

First of all, I thank God for taking care of me and my family. I thank him for guiding the hands and minds of my medical teams. I pray that he continues to unfold his plan for me, because I know I’m not in charge of anything here.

Secondly, I thank my wife and kids, and my siblings and their families (and especially my mother) for all of the prayers and cards and visits and for being my family.  I also thank my church family who, in the form of small groups, have helped us through some very trying emotional and financial times. They have showered us all with love and help and meals.  Thank you and bless you.

Thirdly, I thank all of my friends for their continued support. And I give a big shout out to Matt and Hoanh, and Al and Nancy, for taking me in while I waited for my liver.  I could not have made it through without your selflessness and your love, and I will never forget your kindness. You are family. Thank you all.

What’s next? Well, no more surgeries, I hope.  I just want to live my days doing whatever God leads me to do.  I want to continue to marvel at nature. I want to continue to love my wife, my family, my friends and my pets.  I want to work again, as soon as I am cleared medically.  I want to experience MORE.

Always remember: “Life’s worth living.” (quote from M.S. “Coon” Derden. Thanks Malky)

4 responses to “1 year ago…

  1. I think you were heavily drugged to think I looked like an angel! 😉 Seriously, I wouldn’t have been anywhere else and only wish I could be closer now.

    I love you, big Bro!

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